welcome to my side of the moon

nessearth @ 2005-12-05T23:03:00

2005-12-06T04:11:06Z

Dear Santa...

Dear Santa,

This year I've been busy!

In November I ate my brussel sprouts (1 points). In January on a flight to Pakistan, I stole the emergency flight information card (-40 points). In June I had a shoot-out with rival gang lords on the 5 near LA (-76 points). In October I gave pepperoni_stick a kidney (1000 points). Last Saturday I ruled Asscrackistan as a kind and benevolent dictator (700 points).

Overall, I've been nice (1585 points). For Christmas I deserve a shiny red ball!

Sincerely,
nessearth

this is great b/c in a different Santa letter pepperoni-stick needed a bone marrow transplant. Jeeze man, tough year.

Anyways, December eh? Seeing as the terms are getting shorter each year I can only assume that I'll be in Europe in no time. It's unreal to think where we are at this point yet there is so much more to accomplish. It also dawned on me the other day, after another motivating talk with my dear brother, that I am ONLY 21. I have my whole life ahead of me and then some. I HAVE time to get it all done. So I'm going to. I'm going to do it all and in no particular order. Just because my brother had seen a baker's dozen worth of countries by the time he was 25 doesn't mean that we all have to or else it's over. That's great for him, I will have completed my undergraduate degree before the age of 27. Take that big guy!!

It's unfortunate that I do want to just get up and move on to the next stage. So if there's any way for me to get my degree handed to me (doesn't even have to be on a silver platter!) I'm all ears!

Good all on your upcomming exams and and juries. I wish you all the best and hope that your winter break is indeed a break.

be safe

2005-11-01T23:06:05Z

This post is more pertanent to thoes in my community, but I think it applies to everyone.

On November 1 my house was broken into. Thankfully my stuff is too crappy or it's value isn't obvious so nothing of mine was taken. My roomate, however, was the sole victim of our house. Her laptop, digital camera and multiple DVD's were taken. This was not the only break-in in my are over the past couple of days. The police told us that they take what they can fit into a backpack or what won't look odd for them to carry on the street. Also that if valuables are left near a window, or if the blinds are up then they'll be able to case the joint from the street. I would like to urge everyone to keep their doors locked even if you are home. If your room is on a separate level there is still a risk of them coming in.

Please be safe and get to know your neighbours, it can make a world of difference.

nessearth @ 2005-10-31T23:44:00

2005-11-01T04:44:32Z

This Is My Life, Rated
Life:	8.3
Mind:	7.5
Body:	7.5
Spirit:	6.8
Friends/Family:	6.5
Love:	9.2
Finance:	7.2
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can't nobody bring me down

2005-07-27T16:34:00Z

So it seems that about half of my friends and/or acquaintances are in a bit of a rut at the moment. That makes me sad b/c I don't like seeing or hearing about them being in a bad place or not happy with themselves at the moment. This is b/c my friends are fabulous. All of them. Each one is wonderful and has amazing things to offer. So I would like to extend my friendship and love to all of them out there who aren't feeling 100% at the moment. Call me if you want to talk, email me if you need to vent.

It's times like this I sorta wish that I had religion... it seems like an appropriate time to pray or meditate. Ah well, I'll just make do with what I have.

Vanessa May, signing off.

nessearth @ 2005-07-05T09:35:00

2005-07-05T13:36:29Z

just to update my newest nephew has been named at long last! So a big welcome to Sascha Goshtashpbour! WOO HOO BABIES!!

nessearth @ 2005-07-04T09:29:00

2005-07-04T13:38:47Z

My sister had her baby on Sunday at 8am. It's a boy, 6 lbs and 10 oz. No name as of yet, but it's a toss up between Sasha or Mehtra... or maybe something else, haha, they really don't know yet. My sister mentioned something about letting Saam pick the name, but since he's still talking gibbrish this could get interesting. Anyways, he's perfect as usual and I love him to bits already! Man babies are just too much! I can't wait for the next two months to watch him start to grow. It will also be interesting to see how Saam takes to being an older brother. He's such a sweet kid I'm sure he'll love being the older one.

In other news my other nephews are in town with my sister. It's been such a crazy weekend! I don't think I've really slept in three days. Thank goodness it was a long weekend so there was lots of time to get everything done.

I had my first lesson this past friday with Gwen Little and it was amazing. Our styles and personalities really click and so I really hope that things work out for us. She's just too fun and so worldly.

eugh... so tired, but since I'm at work sleeping isn't an option... or is it!?

Summer is half through, so squeeze everything you can out of the rest of it!!

this crazy rollercoaster ride

2005-06-27T15:42:50Z

where do you go with your broken heart in tow
what do you do with the left over you
and how do you know, when to let go
where does the good go, where does the good go

look me in the eye and tell me you don't find me attractive
look me in the heart and tell me you won't go
look me in the eye and promise no love's like our love
look me in the heart and un break broken, it won't happen

it's love that breaks the seal of always thinking you would be
real, happy and healthy, strong and calm, where does the good go
where does the good go

where do you go when you're in love and the world knows
how do you live so happily while I am sad and broken down
what do you say it's up for grabs now that you're on your way down
where does the good go, where does the good go

so very fitting for right now... it's almost kinda creepy...

nessearth @ 2005-06-22T09:48:00

2005-06-22T13:55:24Z

here's a question....

so my cottage weekend was last weekend and it went rather swimmingly. Everyone had mucho fun. Matty and I were talking about last year's weekend b/c that was when we told each other we loved one another. I mentioned that it was funny how we both seemed to be on the same page at the same time and then he tells me that when he said it, it was b/c he loved me but wasn't in love with me (at the time, he swears he is now! lol). So my question is this: when someone tells you they love you do you say it back if you just love them and aren't IN love with them?

It just got me thinking, I don't remember when I knew the difference between the two. I just knew that I loved him and was in love. I guess I'm intrigued by his ability to differentiate. Is there really a difference? Maybe saying there is one is a way of not quite accepting and understanding how much you really love someone... I don't know.

On another note, the school never got my intent to register form but yet the education department still signed me up for my required courses... odd. So I'm all signed up now but still not sure what exactly I need to take for third year. Meh.

nessearth @ 2005-06-13T15:53:00

2005-06-13T19:49:26Z

This is for Paul:

My sister went out for coffee with an old uni friend the other day. As they were chatting a guy approaches the friend and says "Bianca, hi!!". Her response, said in a cool and calm voice, "Don't be offended if I don't know your name."

Needless to say she's a bit of a heart breaker, but how fabulous is that line.

Well the cottage weekend is fast approaching and I think it's going to be some good times. We're almost half way through the summer and I'm itching to get back to my own place already. But I really wouldn't mind postponing the start of classes for a while... until say, November. You know, really get a summer's worth of sun without any responsibility.

Anyhoodle, hope that everyone is having good summers.

nessearth @ 2005-06-03T09:04:00

2005-06-03T13:09:10Z

I just taught my mum how to use my cell, our phone at the cottage is broken, and somehow she managed to turn that into telling me that I dress trampy for work. She's nuts!! I'm wearing a tee with a tank top over it for colour and neither of the shirts are low cut. I mean the only way one would see even an inch of clevage would be if they were standing directly above me and seriously staring down my top. I work upstairs in an office on my own. No clients see me sitting down ever to be able to have that vantage. It's rediculous. She's crazy and she needs to get out and to the cottage ASAP. I'm very close to quitting my job and just going to London...

nessearth @ 2005-05-30T09:29:00

2005-05-30T13:34:15Z

The Fall Of The LJ Jedi

LiveJournal Username

So, what's your name, Jedi?

I see. What's your affiliation?

Good, good. What's your lightsaber color?

Finally, what's your fighting tactic most likely to be?

The Sith Lord who hunts all Jedi:

fishnet_shroud

The Jedi Master who leads you into battle:

equileus

The Leader of the Wookies:

silverswimfish

The One that dies in the first 20 minutes:

evryne_lvs_paul

The Traitor who misleads you all:

wbote

Survivor #1

fishnet_shroud

Survivor #2

xxhug_n_kissxx

The odds you'll survive this are:

51%

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he he, that one worked out nicely.

So I'm finally finished with second year! My jury went well and I'm glad to be starting summer for real now. The trip to London was fun and much needed. I'm going back this weekend too, so yay no more Richmond Hill for a little while. My mum is going power crazy these days. She likes to pretend that she's my boss and therefor I have to clear any days off with her and clear the reason why with her. She acctually said to me "I don't know any kids who take days off in summer". I laughed. Very hard. Then I asked her how many 20 year old friends she had and also reminded her that all my friends take days off and so she's crazy.
I had a great weekend though, some time at the man's house and then party with the girls with the help of some shrooms. Good times had by all. But sleep had by none, I'm still feeling it.

cheers

nessearth @ 2005-05-11T09:16:00

2005-05-11T13:25:10Z

Your life as an Opera by ladivinabionda
Name
Are you male or female?
Your voice type	Bass
Your character type	Second chorus whore from the left
Your Opera will be:	A tragedy based on Greek or Roman mythology with a glorious deus ex machina ending.
Composer	Bizet
Your Operatic Death	You set yourself and your horse on fire.
Where will your opera premier?	At the Salzburg Festspiel with an internationally acclaimed cast.

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So I realized that I havn't really updated. The reason is b/c my life is boring and there isn't much to say. The only thing taking up my time so far is singing (for my jury in May) and work. My mum has been sick the past couple of weeks so I've had to step in and become her. I now make all the meals and do the shopping and the laundry and the making sure my dad eats properly and that my sister doesn't need anything and see that the world doesn't fall apart... b/c apparently all of thoes things my mother takes care of on a daily basis. It's been really domestic needless to say and I can't wait for the weekend. I'm going to Nova Scotia to see my brother's convocation and then we're going to party like it's 1999 all weekend. I need a break, or not a break, I just need for my mum to understand that if she's going to put me in charge then she has to accept that my methods vary slightly from hers. And not that much anyways (I had to learn them somewhere). At this point I might as well just have my sister drop off my nephew and take that on too, you know, just to complete the picture.

Well, that's my life as of now. It's not really all that bad, I'm having an oddly good time with it all... I just like to bitch ;)

nessearth @ 2005-05-06T14:42:00

2005-05-06T18:42:57Z

Shamelessly stolen from Roop

Your brain: 120% interpersonal, 180% visual, 60% verbal, and 40% mathematical!

Congratulations on being 400% smart! Actually, on my test, everyone is. The above score breaks down what kind of thinking you most enjoy doing. A score above 100% means you use that kind of thinking more than average, and a score below 100% means you use it less. It says nothing about how good you are at any one, just how interested you are in each, relatively. A substantial difference in scores between two people means, conclusively, that they are different kinds of thinkers.

Matching Summary: Each of us has different tastes. Still, I offer the following advice, which I think is obvious:

Don't date someone if your interpersonal percentages differ by more than 80%.
Don't be friends with someone if your verbal percentages differ by more than 100%.
Don't have sex with someone if their math percentage is over 200%.

My test tracked 4 variables How you compared to other people your age and gender:

You scored higher than 90% on interpersonal

You scored higher than 96% on visual

You scored higher than 67% on verbal

You scored higher than 37% on mathematical

Link: The 4-Variable IQ Test written by chriscoyne on Ok Cupid

nessearth @ 2005-05-04T09:58:00

2005-05-04T14:08:14Z

so after a terrible move in day i'm finally out of my house and into my new one. since then i've been back home for three days and i've managed to change my life plan around like a million times. i just hate that i feel like i've been wasting eveyone's time but i still want to finish what i started. so there's this new program coming out next year that i want to get into. it's just a general music honors degree, so that sounds about right for me! either that or i'll just switch into history or something...

i'm seriously thinking more and more about Law School these days. I mean if my crazy brother can get in AND get hired somewhere, I certainly shouldn't have a problem! working at the office last year was great and i love what my dad does. I think it would be fun and challenging to take over his practice. plus by the time he'll be ready to finally retire i'll be out of school and ready to take over! it's perfect!! .... something to think about i suppose...

my man went down to the states for his try out/skate/meet the coach thing this week. he plays it down and says that it's not really a try out he's just going to see the school and meet ppl to see if it's what he wants to do, but i'm pretty sure he's just trying not to get his hopes up in case it falls through. he seems to be having fun there so far though so at least he likes the city.

it's good to be home but it feels like i should be more settled... i feel like i really want to get going and start life, get away from being so dependant on my parents for everything. ah well, these past two years have flown by and the next will undoubtedly go even faster. what a trip in the end it will be.

cheers

nessearth @ 2005-03-23T10:49:00

2005-03-23T15:49:53Z

nessearth @ 2005-03-17T03:08:00

2005-03-17T08:16:26Z

things are starting to get really messed up. i'm exhausted all the time and at the same time i'm not. it's like i feel rested but i just want to sleep all day each day. so it's not like i feel the physical need to sleep, just a very strong desire and want to do so.

it's like somewhere along the line everyone else was told how to go about this time of year or whatever, and i was somewhere else while this happened. you'd think afer 7 years of "exam" or "crunch" times i'd start to get a little better at dealing. or time management. or just pulling my shit together. and each time it seems to work out so i'd love to say that yeah it's going to this year too, but i just don't think it will. i mean i'll finish the year, like it will technically be over i just don't know of i'll be one of the third years doing second year. i can't handle that again. all i want is for these stupid required courses to just be over with and never come back. they are the bain of my undergrad career and the reason i don't like my program as much as i had hoped.

it just makes me almost wish for the days of single income families so that i can just stay in the kitchen and do what i do best... man that sounds like such backwards thinking, but i guess it's not really when i have other options and i just choose that one...

nessearth @ 2005-02-16T12:10:00

2005-02-16T17:16:26Z

Reading week is upon us and I couldn't be happier. I can't wait to get back home and see my family, this year has been pretty tough as far as me getting home sick a lot.

But at least my home life has settled down a bit. The housemates are chosen (ther's been one more addition to the mix) and the hunt continues. The man is being sweet again and is staying in London for the next two years. The only thing that concerns me now is the people that I need to reconnect with. I've turned into one of 'thoes' girls who's life is centered around the people she lives with, due to convienience, and the man. It's sad but I need to change that. It's going to be hard to make things right in March b/c of Gypsy and all but I'll do my best and make sure that my time goes to my firends. And possibly school work.

I'm still having trouble getting it done and enjoying myself. I still need to talk to Diane about switching studios. I also have to take care of this stupid history essay. As in get a topic and get it approved. Yeesh.

Well here's hoping.

nessearth @ 2005-02-10T13:48:00

2005-02-10T18:48:38Z

i think i fixed the time problem!! woo!!!

so after finish the choral prject from hell I think that perhaps I don't want to be a choral conductor, maybe i'll just pick up guitar and get really good at that, then i can teach a course that has to do with voice and guitar.... so basically it's a "how to be productive around a campfire" course... shit.... anyways, i'll make it work somehow.

Reading week is coming up fast and i still don't know what i'm going to do about a job for the summer, my cousin is being flaky but apparently i have more contacts in Montreal, so i might end up working at a second cup there. woo. at least it's a job and it's in a fabulous city, but it's not exactly what i had in mind.

house hunting is going terrible though, last night a landlord just plain didn't show up which is just bad business. we're looking at more places tonight though. i'm just frustrated b/c money is becoming an issue again. one of my housemates doesn't have much and can't pay a lot for rent, which is fine but the thing is we're not going to find a three bedroom that's liveable for under 325 or 350 plus utilities. that's just the way it is. I mean we saw a good place for 350 plus and she said she'd have to think about it and talk to her parents.. i mean i'm not sure what to do b/c if she wants to live in a place where all the rooms are going to be a decent size then we're all going to have to pay the same rent. if she wants a break on teh rent then she's going to have to take a smaller room, and that's just the way it is. ahh well, it will all work out. on that note if anyone knows of any apartment buildings that rent out three bedroom places let me know!!

that's about it for now. i just want the weekend to come so that i can get some sleep and eat some junk.

nessearth @ 2005-02-10T13:47:00

2005-02-10T18:47:18Z

is it fixed?

perhaps a little under the influence....

2005-01-28T09:26:27Z

wow, yeah... so about that. quite the night i must say. yup. well have a good night all.

nessearth @ 2005-01-26T08:38:00

2005-01-26T13:46:12Z

I've hit a rut. Well maybe rut isn't a good word for it. I've hit a rut like thing but it's a comfortable rut. Things are good between us and they always have been. We've never been much of anything other then rock steady. However this predictable steadiness now feels like a rut, but the god kind I guess. It's like the comfort of the whole thing is almost overwhelming. I think that this is at the root of me raging at him from time to time for no apparent reason. It's always because something else is pissing me off, not really him. But I feel the need to just be something other then steady around him from time to time.
The ex-factor still bothers me. She's now gone to him with the "my Grandma has cancer" card. Not to say that she's lying but I still don't see why she felt the need to go to him. No I know why she does the things she does. I don't know why he doesn't see it as anything more then just her passing along information and why he can't seem to cut her off. He gets just as pissy when she talks to him as I do, yet he can't seem to just not do it. I don't know, maybe I'm fishing for things here. Maybe I'm not and she's working a slow subtle plan to get him back. Not like it would ever happen.

I feel like I'm back in grade nine or ten. For thoes of you who knew me then you might remember that this was an angry time of my life. But for no reason in particular. Just plain angry most everyday. I get the feeling that's the vibe I'm sending again and I'm not too sure I like it. I don't like feeling angry when I wake up in the morning. I hate being frustrated for no reason and then taking it out on the people who don't deserve it. I need to go camping or skiing for like a week. That would really do the trick. Ah well.. maybe next year.

nessearth @ 2005-01-21T10:15:00

2005-01-21T15:16:53Z

The Great LiveJournal
Outage of 2005

During the outage I searched for a lot of porn. A LOT of porn.

What did you do?

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chef anyone?

2005-01-20T17:40:13Z

BAH!!!!AUUUUGHGHAHGEWIOAHDLW>OJKWGHCWFIAHWF!!! I've had it. I'm done and I really don't want to do it anymore. I really don't think that I'm cut out for music, each class I go to and each course I take I'm excited about at first and then I just get so intensly bored with it all. I don't want to bother with lessons anymore, I don't care about performing ever again, I could care less what kind of conductor I am. I've just had it. Let's just get going with real life already. I honestly feel like I'm 20 going on 38. I want kinds and a career and a husband and a house (and to own it one day) and I want it all now. I'm tired of this youth bullshit. The thirties are where it's at. Thoes are the best years of your life. I have all older, much older siblings, and most are in their thirties and they've never been happier or more stable, or focused. I'm tired of depending on my parents for money. I'm tired of living with teens. But when I think about changing programs I hate the idea of giving up, that's just not something that we do in this family. There are expectations to be met and I've set up what I'm supposed to do and I might as well follow through with it. Now perhaps some time off, like a year or two, would be a good idea, but I worry that if i stop now I'll never come back. I don't know, maybe this is just a second year thing where if you make it through it's all downhill(ish) from here. I guess we'll see. But as for now the only things I have any drive left to do is cook, sleep and ... well... yeah cook is about it for now. Maybe I'll just find some old couple that needs someone to make their meals and then they'll leave me as the sole benificiary of their will so I can start up my own business of some sort.

i'm back!

2005-01-17T23:24:44Z

so i've tried for eons to update but since my computer was dying it was hard. so here it is! update! .... i have a new computer and a new wireless card and i couldn't be happier. also i'm being very studious this term and so far it's working out really well, i'm hoping to keep up this trend at least into the next year. we'll see how this works out by midterms... anyways, i'm geting sick, which sucks, but i have lots of oranges and veggies to help me out. the oranges really help out a lot by keeping my room clean and tucking me in at night, gotta love'em.

anyways, spring is almost here..oh wait that's just global warming, silly me!

keep it real homes.

nessearth @ 2005-01-12T02:21:00

2004-12-13T07:24:26Z

so the time is pre posted on these things so yeah. and i'm still awake after trying to sleep. i really want to sleep. it was the same deal last night too. this is also the first few night in a while that i've slept alone so that might have something to do with it. but i don't go to bed late anymore, this is nuts!! where's a good tranquilizer when you need one!? ah well... maybe i'll read some history and that should put me out soon enough.

wish me luck

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